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[17 Sep 2014|07:13pm]

Stupid LJ got rid of who I was following. C*%$suckers

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tmnt [12 Aug 2014|12:10am]

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[01 Aug 2014|10:15pm]

That feeling where you feel like "oh...yay...now I have to listen to more bullshit, and actually pretend like I care".

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Off and not better [21 Aug 2013|06:58pm]

I've been put off work for a few weeks. To help compose myself? To relieve tensions and stress? To help me sleep? To stop the nightmares? Guess what...It hasn't gone away. And I'm fearful for my return and what it will mean. Not only for me but for what the girls at work now think of me. Oh my.

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Threads [12 Aug 2013|06:29pm]

My threads are slowly unwinding. And as they unwind they can't hold the strain they once did when they were wound tightly together. So they are beginning to break. I only have a few left. They'll be gone soon too.

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Growing up [05 Aug 2013|07:44pm]
So I've come to realize that being self sufficient, completely self sufficient, is very difficult. Buy a house. Live in your house. That is all. Without any help from anyone else. That's all it will be. Don't get me wrong I wanna do it all on my own. But it's gonna be hard. I will have no extras. I will have to penny pinch. Well I guess that's an old expression now because we no longer have Pennies. So I will have to nickel...nest? Oh my. What to do.
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Bridges [23 May 2013|09:26pm]

Don't burn your bridges with people. You may need an escape for when the fire comes.

Shame on you if you fool me once. Shame on me if you fool me twice.

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My friends [29 Apr 2013|07:25pm]

I keep trying to text and talk to friends. But it seems like maybe they are burning bridges with me because of who I am deciding to date. I hope I'm reading more into it.

Just hurts when they don't text back. I understand their friendship with this new girl isn't the best, but I'm still me. I'm not changing for anyone (women or friends). Take me as I am. I didn't change. Just who I decided to date has changed. Don't shut me out. I'm not suggesting anyone has to be awesome friends with anyone else. Just remember who I am. What our friendship is. Don't turn away.

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So happy [08 Apr 2013|06:59pm]

I found someone. She makes me smile. She makes me happy. Can she be mine now? I feel like my first love all over again, that giddy feeling. All I do is smile.
Yay!

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Why?!?!? [17 Mar 2013|12:24am]

It's done. I feel like shit.

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Sweet Jesus [22 Feb 2013|06:26pm]
[ mood | mentally exhausted ]

This job is taking its toll. Something is happening on every file. I don't have good stress management for this stuff. My brain doesn't turn off. I don't sleep.

I'm just feeling like crap and I don't know what to be at

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[19 Feb 2013|10:24pm]

Swallow hard

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Persevere [28 Dec 2012|10:37pm]

I'm pushing through. Full on. What will become of it? Oh my.

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[15 Dec 2012|11:35pm]
Ever feel like something makes no sense and all the sense in the world at the same time?
Oh my!
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Ouch [10 Dec 2012|11:14am]
[ mood | UGH ]

Sometimes a little hurt goes a long way.

This day turned out to be one of the shittiest days I've ever encountered. 1 bad thing right after another like fuck. Really?!?!?

I already hate January. May as well add December 10th to the fucking list. Fuuuuucccckkkkkkk.

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Lies [27 Nov 2012|08:18pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

It's weird how I will NEVER lie to others, but somehow ALWAYS lie to myself

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Recap. [22 Nov 2012|09:25pm]

I feel like it is only now I realize who and what I am.

Found my old journal. Read it. Surprised at the entries and a common theme. It speaks truths. Truths my ears have never heard before. Truths my eyes have never seen before.

My perception is skewed. I see myself as different. I need to think different. I need to be self aware.

I guess the purpose of a journal actually worked. Ya it helps you get out what you are thinking and feeling. But upon reflection, it shows trends and themes that you didn't even know existed. Something clicked in my brain. I'm trying to become more self aware. I hope this is a change for the better. But even if its not, I must be at this point in my life for a reason. Something will come of this. Always does.

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Judged [08 Nov 2012|10:26pm]
[ mood | judged ]

I know what I want. I know what I need. But I'm being questioned and second guessed. And that makes me question myself. And my decisions. I just need this to disappear. I want this to go away. And I want it to be accepted without judgement. I know I'm an asshole because of it. I'll be the talk of the town. I guess it has to be that way for me to cut this off.

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Lost [25 Oct 2012|10:08pm]

I feel like I need to cut this string. I feel like it is what it is. This is far as it will ever be. And I feel like my heart is telling me even this is too much.
FML

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Wedding [23 Oct 2012|10:59am]
[ mood | reflective ]

My best friend is married. wow. Hard to believe. And as I stood there and listened to her say her vows, I realized that was almost me. I was supposed to be married. And then life reared its face. I realize now this was and is how it has to happen. I'm where I need to be. I am who I am and who I will remain. I have to be more conscious of myself and my feelings and not let them take a back seat to anyone else's feelings.

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